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A Different Type of Thank You

A few weeks ago, we had a work meeting where a colleague hosted a workshop addressing how we express our feelings.

How many times have you asked or been asked how are you and the answer was: “Good,” “Okay,” or “Fine.” Now think about how often there were other feelings and energy behind those actual words.

Oftentimes we tend to hide what we are actually feeling in an effort to avoid speaking more about what is actually going on or what is affecting us. We may think our feelings are negative and may not want to pass them onto others or we merely try to deny our own true feelings to ourselves. Some may also shy away from expressing joy or happiness especially during these times we are living.

During this workshop, we learned about other words to use to describe our current state (chart below). The most unique and important part of the workshop (for me) was when we had to do an activity where we had to think or write down how we were feeling in that moment (personally or professionally). At the end, we were instructed to thank those feelings and give a reason why. It was a great way to see the positivity in a negative mood or feeling and to also check our energy behind them.

Personally, I have been going through so much. I really went into the workshop with little intention to participate. I kept telling myself how much I didn’t want to speak about my feelings especially with coworkers. But of course bottling things within is never the solution and actually finding new ways to look within ourselves is pretty cool and can bring about a new perspective.

Below are some of the feelings I thank on a weekly (more like daily) basis. I encourage you to take a moment and try the same! Take time and observe your energy and level of pleasantness in this very moment. It’s nothing like finding that silver lining to motivate you to keep going!

Where do you land on this chart right now?
Thank You
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Lupus Warrior

Today I want to share a story from one of my best friends, Aeisha. She is a Lupus Warrior and was kind enough to let me interview her. She also gave me permission to share her story with my readers.

Q: How old are you?

A: 28.

Q: When were you diagnosed with Lupus?

A: October 2012.

Q: What was your initial reaction to your diagnosis?

A: I thought I was going to die.

Q: What has been the most challenging part of living with Lupus? Has it held you back or prevented you from doing things you have wanted to do?

A: The most challenging part of living with Lupus is not being able to travel as much as I am used to. My lupus caused me to have kidney failure. Now I am on dialysis and it’s hard to just get up and go like regular people. Everything has to be planned.

Q: Are there any organizations/groups that have helped inform you more about Lupus?

A: There are a lot of people on Instagram that I follow and follow me because we share this same disease. It’s comforting to know that I am not alone.

Q: What are some misconceptions people have about Lupus that you have faced?

A: There are people that think those with Lupus are lazy. Just because you can’t physically see my disability, it doesn’t mean that it is not there.

Q: Where are you today with your Lupus?

A: Today, I am still taking my monthly infusions, which I think is helping. I haven’t felt any pain since getting on it. “Fingers crossed!” I still am on dialysis. I am also on the transplant list waiting for a donor.

Q: What keeps you motivated?

A: My education keeps me motivated. The fact that I’m working towards a goal keeps me going.

Q: Any final thoughts or words you want to share?

A: Don’t let anybody say you can’t be!

Lupus affects every person differently. Despite Aeisha’s struggles with this disease, she doesn’t let it keep her down and still works towards her goals. Aeisha is actually receiving her BA this month in Social Work from Rutgers University. So not only is Aeisha fighting her own battle everyday but she is working towards being able to help others in need. She is the definition of a Lupus Warrior!

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Coronavirus…ish got real

If you are anything like me, you didn’t think this whole COVID-19 was going to take over the way it did. I was definitely one of those peeps who kept saying and thinking that this would blow over in a week or so. I was so WRONG!

It has now been almost 2 months since I started working at home and I am still in disbelief. Everything changed so abruptly and it literally happened overnight. One day my daughter was in school and the next we were picking up a Chromebook for her to do remote learning. One day I was at work and the next was told to stay home until further notice.

These past few months have been a rollercoaster ride. We had to start wearing masks, hand sanitizing repeatedly, wearing gloves, and even spraying alcohol when coming back into the house. Let’s not forget the mental effects this virus has had on just about everyone! I have had days where my emotions, feelings, and thoughts have caused me to have mini meltdowns. This coming from someone who didn’t take this seriously at all at first.

This virus hit a little to close to home though. At the end of March, my mother tested positive for the virus and was extremely ill. It was super scary and it was even worse because I couldn’t be by her side like I would have wanted. I had to rely on phone calls to my dad and hoping he was being honest. My sister and I would take turns checking in with them throughout the day. Once my mom started getting better, my dad began to feel sick. Fortunately, by the grace of God, he tested negative for the virus and actually felt better in about a week. Sadly, it doesn’t end there. Several of my aunts and uncles also tested positive and are still healing slowly.

This, however, is not the case for all of them. One of my uncles is still in the hospital and it has been a long 3 weeks. We have been praying for him and checking in with him every day but it is extremely difficult. We are fortunate enough to have a close family friend that works at the hospital stop in during her shift each day just so we can say hello.

I can imagine that a lot of the world has experienced an incline in so many stressors and it has truly affected our mental health. However, it has also made us open our eyes and look back at moments we may not have appreciated as much. I know for me, it’s small things such as merely stopping by my mom’s place and hanging out with the kids for an hour or even our small birthday gatherings where we could sing Happy Birthday and cut a cake. It’s these small things that I truly miss. FaceTime calls have definitely become more frequent.

I write this in hope to offer some comfort to others experiencing these same or similar things. Know that you are not alone. We are in this together. Please take some of this time to distract yourself from all the negativity that is being put out.

Find some time to turn off your television, log off of social media, and just enjoy some fresh air and some sun. One thing they haven’t banned us from doing is going for a walk (of course being safe). So go out and enjoy it! I know this works for me; it is a way to recharge.

Some other suggestions: use this time to boost your self-care, pick up a hobby, or even teach your kid(s) something new (bike riding is on our list here). Self-care was at the bottom of my priority list which is NO BUENO (not good). It took me so many weeks before I finally made time to workout again and write some blog posts. I even used a face mask a few times. Go Me!

Let us take these tough times and use it to rebuild ourselves. This way once the world opens up again, we will be ready to conquer it.

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New Year – Better Late than Never!

Hi all,

This is a rather late post considering it is now March! However, I still wanted to share some of my goals for 2020 because I feel it is a way to hold myself accountable. I want to have a way to reflect on what I got done and what still needs work throughout the year as well as at the end. So here it goes!

  1. Lose weight
  2. Read 3 books
  3. Become an academic advisor
  4. Stop being or trying to be controlling of what I can’t and shouldn’t
  5. Learning to trust again (if I learn to be more trusting, I feel it will help me be less controlling)
  6. Becoming better at communicating (I can write things down easily, why can’t I just express myself the same way…ugh)
  7. Save $$$ (continuous goal, but sometimes life hits! No more excuses though!)
  8. Making additional income (this can help me save more…Marce Edits?)
  9. More blog posts (currently need to work on this!!)
  10. Saying no more frequently (self-care is the best care!)